important moments: things i'll remember

well, the 3-day-seemingly-endless-exams concluded today
it was disheartening
it was a challenge, i took it
didn't survive it the way i had hoped for
for the first time
anxiety stabbed me right at my heart
i felt heavy. gasped for air
this i will remember

whether it is the exam hall or room
or be it the 04s6a classbench
there will be comic relief
guaranteed
the times of laughter
and of feeling like we're all in the same pits
after a murderously difficult paper
thinking and re-thinking of the future
this i will remember

the times my hands felt heavy
and my head was low
through the ill preparations
the tiredness due to lack of rest
the rushed meals
and during those important 1 hours
and two and three hours
this i will not forget
the storm that calmed before the ride
the signals that guided me through the dark
the walls that kept me from breaking apart

thank you Lord for telling me to remember
at the most important hour, You will be there

and thanks to you for bearing with my grumblings
sorry i behaved so selfishly